Jobless yet not boring....=)

Yes,this is what happens.Every time I click on the 'new post', I end up staring at the empty column which is.. well, staring at me back. After an hour or so playing the staring game, I will give up and close the page. There are so much of stuff to tell everyone but there is something lacking in me.. something that is preventing me to express myself. I am trying to pen down my thoughts for the past few days, but somehow find it hard to put my feelings into words. That is always my problem isn't it? I wonder how these authors manage to write novels and tonnes of them! I can't even write a proper blog post expressing myself and that certainly makes me to look like a loser.

The problem is most of the time the ideas I post here is truly originally mine,but somehow I will have to sometimes peep into other people’s blog to exactly get those ideas of mine in a written form.That has always bothered me....,realizing my English had never been good enough.
Anyway,it’s all about learning isn’t it?And that’s how I do.And that is my purpose to have a blog on my own first of all…to improve my writing and learning to pen down my thoughts.

It is complicated nevertheless. And I am talking not only about writing a blog post. . Even human behaviour never fail to make me to awe in disbelief. It's like a cobweb - complex, real and intimidating. Can get what I mean…??? If you don’t ,then just forget it .... ;p

Well, it had been a tiring week after I started looking for a job since like a 3weeks ago and I still land in a jobless island. Not because I'm being choosy and picky but... I just wanna find a job that can make me always on-the-go with it and not feeling dreaded to work. So basically, for the past few,…no many days... my time was mostly spent on.. making calls, writing resume, interviews and finding ways to reject some offer. Haha!!! Trust me, it's a wonderful experience after all and I do really learn alot from one interviewer to another. I just didn't realise this until lately, I actually have an interest in communicating with people as all along, I thought of myself as an INTROVERT.

ka,ka,ka...

It's not that I wanna boast about how many jobs I had turned down so far but really, there are just alot of aspects I need to consider mindfully.Transportation…,every job I’ve been called so far is located far from my area.It's like I have to take at least 2 bus to get there.And it has been always a minus point that I don’t drive yet.Or perhaps I should say I’m not allowed to drive yet. ;p kesian aku....
Then,the salary is not very satisfaying as when I roughly calculate the amount I’ll be having in my hand at the end of the month….,there’ll be nothing much left after I minus the Socso,EPF ,food and transportation cost.Adding to that,I still have not own a hand phone.So,basically,I’m not really prepared to work anywhere.But somehow I have to.Sounds pathetic??? ha,ha,ha..I know…;p
And I will never forget my working experience for a day in Wisma Central…;p….Outdoor advertising ….,Customer service…sounds neat and cool,isn’t it?Yeah right.....ha,ha..that’s where they brought me for a walking under the hot sun to distribute domino pizza’a voucher.WTH lar….I really got pissed off because it was totally out of my expectation.

The best part was that I got praised by the boss that I have very good potential...kepala otak dia! Dah I kena tipu..ini nak puji pula..DUH! ;p
Hayyo…so,apa lagi cabut lar..!!!!!!!!!ha,ha,ha….I waved at them saying GOODBYE ‘CUSTOMER SERVICE’!!!

moral of the story.....,

December is coming to an end ….hoping I’ll get a good job soon…so that I can start earning by January.


Alright then,I should get a good sleep first for now ;p

Good night people.....=)

Happy Tsunami Day!!!!

;p Ooopsss sorry!!!

and this can cause tsunamis too!  ha,ha,ha...

Targeted...

There are some things that I clearly know I have to avoid because its none of my business but it's unavoidable simply because I can't even if want to…how can I just ignore when I could clearly see the consequences of your actions???? Once is enough…if you are blaming your hormones and age…No,not for this.This has got to do merely with your commonsense and how much you let others to have influence over you. I’m sorry that sometimes my way of caring for you is such a dry method.But,because you matter much to me… I’d rather be real,and say exactly what I feel than act all fake and be something I ain’t. It's always wise to learn from the mistakes of others, rather than you making it yourself and regretting it someday. Prevention is better than cure, but IF you want to do what you think it FEELS good, you may go on. Someday you will know what I said was true, and hopefully that moment isn't too late for you to digest the facts that was once sour to you.


Anyhow,you can always count on me and thanks a lot for trusting me =)

(If this post does’nt concern you,pls ignore)

The end of the book of SCHOOL.....

This is how I feel right now....

=)  =)  =)

STPM is over...yes finally.All I want to say is....

Feelings of all remorseful is of course  unavoidable.It was'nt  because of my ignorance...I knew afterall that STPM is not going to be as easy as it sounds.I could have worked harder..,I know it was'nt my best.All I can do is to hope that I'll be given another chance and opportunity to prove myself...and I  know no matter how much I pray,I'll only get what I rightfully deserve.
My first and for most mistake was because I gave up in the very beginning itself.....yup,I actually gave up much earlier...

'MACHO LAW' is what kept prohibiting me from admitting that I had actually given up long time ago!  ;p

Okay,lets just forget it.....no regrets,only lessons learnt. =)

The word G.O.A.L.S and D.R.E.A.M.S in life seems to be pretty often talked about, but scoring it is another big story isn't it? [sigh] Walahaai...

So,it  is indeed an ending to our schooling life but bear in mind the REALISTIC LIFE has just begun! No more fooling around and corrections can be made anymore as the real world out there doesn't give a second chance to the ignorant. I can tell the teachers that I didn't finish their homework but I can never even tell my boss that I HAVE NOT FINISHED THE PROPOSAL! I can arrive school late in one straight row of days and could not care less with the demerits awarded but I don't think I can tolerate the black charcoal face of my boss for even a day if I were ever late for once ;p

Okay...back to where I was...,Last day of schooling in my life, after so many years of making school as my second home. Today, I could just stand before the time and looked at the flashbacks of my one a half years journey in Form 6. Beautiful is the word for it. Although one and a half years is nothing compared to my 11 years of toiling in St.Mary Primary and Secondary School, but somehow Form 6 in Smk Raja Abdullah has touched my life deeper than those days in my previous school. I would say that it's because of the unsung heroes that live behind those walls. Yes, they are the teachers,juniors and all my new friends I met at there.

 I would say most of them have touched my heart tremendously, unrealisingly, I'd grown fonder of them with time. I never thought that it was harder than thought, to walk out from this stage of life, leaving behind these wonderful people that I got to know in Smk Raja Abdullah.Each and every one I met  in this school has been very meaningful to me.Be it you.

Then, it came to a stage where I started to feel, arghh..I'm going to miss all the great times I had here with my friends. Well, I'm always feeling thankful to be blessed with such awesome friends in my life. It was a sudden change in my life when I entered F6 last year, from an all girls' school to a coed school. From loads of responsibilities,dicipline,studies to a carefree teenager,independant student.I never thought I'd be able to find so many genuine friends here. Thinking back on how we started our conversations and getting to know one another, was such a memorable experience.

There's so much more to write about this...I think I should start with a new title some other day.

Alrite then...,we all left the school after the Chemistry (paper1) feeling so excited.I had lunch with my friends in Marry Brown and took bus to St.Mary.The others left for a movie in Brem Mall..My bestie,Komala, joined me ....we had a great time together.It had been a few months since we last met.We had so much to talk,though time factor did'nt allow us to do so.Haiz~it's okay...I believe separation secures a manifest friendship..=)
and ya...,I also realised something today...I think now I've learned the difference between having a 'good friend' and having a 'close friend'. It's about whether or not you are having 'real' conversations.

Well, my purpose to go back to school wasn't for the sake of roaming at the corridors from one classroom to another but actually went back to collect my 1119 certificate. Trust me, no matter how tough and hectic the lessons were or maybe how unreasonable the teachers once were, it doesn't really matter after all..... as school is always a place where corrections can be made and not in the real world out there. The very first step I made into the hallway,we call it a lobby, it gave me a very strong sense of belonging. Being an ex- St.Marian is yet another gift I acquired.

Okay,you may find this post of mine totally unorganized..I'm sorry,can't help it..my fingers are all typing on its own.Obviously,I'm overwhelmed.He,he..;p

Oh dear, I'm starting to miss alot of things about school. Going to miss the times when I was late and sped all the way from home to school just to catch the time before the back gate closed. Going to miss the times when we hanged out overtime in the F6 toilet just to escape from some classes :P Going to miss the lunches after school hours, duties in the library, kadet bomba and so much more!

F6, a wise choice made that I know I will and shall never regret doing even it was a tough time struggling with the syllabus. I know someday when I look back at those were the days, it would definitely be a smile and not a frown  =)

Great time,great smile,great friends in a great school...=)

Been there, done that.

End of the schooling chapter.