Stress,So what they call.

Its tough,real tough... keep telling myself that I'm not afraid, though there's so much to be afraid of. Looks as if my passion is just not here...it lies somewhere else in the field of Biology...Chemistry seem to have no good 'chemistry' (bond) with me...

I've taken a turn in the crossroad after mindfully considering many things,...Wish I know now itself whether thats a right turn or a left one...Anyhow,I still believe I can do it...guess its just a matter of how i'm looking at it.I got to start seeing it as 'easy' in the first place,then,everything else will fall on place.

A few more days left for the battle to begin...it's going to determine my future, everything that I wanted to be.I would'nt want to run away from this fear..for I believe if do,I'll keep running from it for the rest of my life...if this insignificant fear is what I can't cope with,how on earth am I going to overcome bigger things in life?

I dare not say if im going to make it ,but it's good enough that I'm working at my best...God decides the rest. It's just the ordeal I need to experience in order to fulfil my dreams...In case I flunked....note,just in case...then,

Will I be sad??? Yes.
Will I be devastated? NEVER.

....because nowadays,nothing can kill me.I'm just not bothered.If it is meant to happen,it will happen.

Hands on heart,say ALL IS WELL!!!~(3-idiots) lolx =p

Note to self:
Im not going to lose at this.Not now,not in the future,not ever.A fighter I am,but loosing a battle is not an option I signed up for.I know,though hope is frail,it's still hard to kill me. =)

This specific post is just a ray of hope within me and is solely a self consolation.So,pls bare with this piece of crap.Period. =)

 

It's really amazing how ONE SONG can change your mood,thoughts and emotions.

I'm wondering if it's actually good or bad for my brain which is doing all this over thinking.Why can't I take things as it is?Why do I think so much of what is there hidden behind every circumstances?It leaves me with hundreds of questions,but never an answer.[sigh]

To a friend;From a friend =)

Somebody is threatening me in the name of Death....,Lolx LIKE ITS A BAD THING.

''I may come back safely,or I may not come back at all''

''I'm wanna go with my friend.My life is blah,blah,blah without her''

''I should have died''

''I could have died''

For the fact that I don't bother saying I miss you,hug or kiss...or to have always been mentioning 'Like I care'.....,this is what comes back to me..

''You gonna miss me one day,but at that time..I will no longer be there''

''You are going to regret when I die one day''

and when we quarrel:

''Don't ever come to my funeral when Im dead''

Not forgetting,
'''I wanna Rest in peace (RIP)''

Now young lady,
You make me awe in disbelief when you go hysterical over me if I ever mention about my own death.But on the other hand,you are expecting me to squel in excitement if you were the one to speak about it....
WHAT THE HELL IS RIGHT??????????

To you:
''Don't worry if you happen to leave before me,because at the end of the day,I'll still  get to meet you back in heaven and at that time, make sure you run hiding behind God as for he is the only who can save you from me...You may have intended to piss me off,but trust me...none of these hurts.At least not as the 'VERY BIG LIE' you once told...Lol =p...and that you should know. =)

Till then,CRAP as you please..,and I could'nt care any less....he,he





Our birth made us mortal-we live a beautiful life-and then one day we die-leaving behind love-The love
gonna be enough to last for our people to face the world without us-Our death will make us immortal.Of course we are relentlessly hopeful group-that's what makes us human-But... who are we not to believe we can live forever? In many ways,we do.


I know you are reading this now,so im not letting go of this opportunity to bombard you.ha,ha..and make sure after reading this,you don't come pounding on me for clarification,for what has to be told ,is already being told.=)

Therefore,
  I would'nt mind mentioning DEATH even for 1001 times,because to me...
dying is just as natural as living.Get me???And yet ,if you think its a sensitive issue,let it be you first to stop speaking about it.

p/s:
As I always say,....what is meant to be a joke,should be taken as a joke.If you're offended in any way...,I can't help it.Perhaps, just hope that you will forgive without me having to apologize.he,he..(this is definitely egoistic)..That's Simply Me.
I may hurt you,piss you off,tell sarcastic stuffs,tease you,may not care enough and even break you.Put that all aside,I'm still a good girl or shall I say..a God-like person???..Lolx

It's good enough that I know my self.=)