Little things that counts....

Hi friends , all those who are reading this ............

When I got my first comment from a complete stranger I was head over heels in happiness .....
Then I got another one .........from a person whose name too I dont know ........what matters is he left the comment there just to make me feel good .......that is something .
He could have just read it and left it at that but he felt the comment made me happy and put one there .....thank you.
It is acts like these that make a difference .
Small things , incidents , insignificant but they leave a mark of goodness and goodwill and it's inspiring and flattering at the same time ..... Thanks again friends.=)

I decide whom I want to be.....

CAUTION: Highly boring content and may  laced with slight sarcasms. One may have symptomps of allergic,lethargy, blood pressure,, continous vomiting and headache……don’t tell me I did not warn you………….apa-apa jadi,tanggung sendiri. ;p

Today has been a good day, so naturally I feel the urge to write and blog. I wont write about my day, but this is something that I've been wanting to write about for some time.About me,myself and I…
I'm such a strange mix of different stereotypes, and I've probably showed all my different sides to all different people and have probably confused everyone, which would make them think I'm weird. Some days I'm bubbly, some days I look like a rampage is 2 seconds away. Some days I'm on top of it and some days are just bad, and not a single person in that place knows me well enough to know what's legit, and what's just a mood.
This really bothers me.But it does’nt matter afterall coz I know nobody can truly understand anybody.
There was a time when I always assume people think exactly the same way that I do. I blindly made conclusions thinking that those around me behave like me. I was under the impression that people can read my mind.
Yes, obviously over the time, I realised how dumb I was.

People DO NOT think like me.
People DO NOT behave like me.
People ARE NOT me.

I don't know if that is what we call bitter reality, but it is the reality nevertheless. What I have learned now? There are differing opinions around me. Differing opinions here do not mean only with regards to my opinion, but also to myself. Yes, they might be your friends, colleagues, relatives, acquaintances, classmates, labmates, gymmates bla bla bla.. but they might not like everything about you. Maybe to a certain extend, they might feel comfortable with you. Yet, that should not be interpreted as a complete acceptance of us. It's not wrong.. just not entirely safe :-)
When I say it is not entirely safe, I didn't mean you should not trust every single person around you. I also didn't mean they are going to attack you at the very next second. But you might get hurt once you find out certain truths. And in that way, it is certainly not safe.

You may over come any nature’s disaster but the real cyclone is your THOUGHTS ITSELF.Sometimes not everyone can agree with your perceptions and it makes your situation worst as people misjudge you. Not all can see what you see through your eyes, as different intellectual level, or personal experience might relate to perceptions. Just because someone thinks differently than you are, do not label them as ego because we are all different individuals. It doesn’t mean one becomes superior than another by expressing different thoughts but there are valid reasons why things are in such way or the influence behind the pattern of thoughts…………Another lesson i learnt up to this moment of life is to just keep my mouth shut as some of my thought might harm friendship, simply because we humans are different in our experiences and upbringing which mould our ideologies……………………..FORGET & FORGIVE! I love you my friends.

I'm only turning 20 in August and probably still have long way ahead. I still have lot more things to see, people to meet and part. But I know, my personal space is mine and mine alone. I don't think I am prepared to let anyone invade it. Meaning which.. if you think you are close to me and know everything about me, then probably you know nothing.

It's not that I want to be mysterious. In fact, most of my friends will think I am pretty open when it comes to sharing, but I choose what to be shared and with whom. I choose whom I wanna be. If you think I'm arrogant. Then, that is because I choose to behave like that to YOU. If you think I'm a sister, that is also because I choose to be one to YOU. If u think Im a good friend..yeah,again because I choose to be one to you.Yes, I decide whom I wanna be to you. So, next time if you find yourself saying .. 'Sandra is such a ***** !!", it will be because that is what YOU deserve to get. =)

I’m not someone who is as lovely  as I appear to be,I know I’m not.I hit people at face,not at their back.But I will proudly say that I’m very caring. I know self praising is no praising and IT'S NO GOOD but soleela......;p

I cared a lot for people. Some deserved such care. Some.. not at all.

Along the way,you may have labelled me as someone being boastful or narcissistic.It’s not my narcissism,it’s just my own term of living which you’ll never fully understand.I’m not born an adult.I I know I’m too proud at times and yes I’m proud of myself.Ha,Ha,Ha....;D in some ways…not like what you are thinking,but heaven,it’s good enough that I know myself.

In the end of the day, I am the one who should be calling the shot. This is a life gifted to me by them and it is not meant to please others alone. As mean as it may sound, I decide whom I wanna be. =)

*I AM A RETARDED KID AND HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITY, SO DO NOT GET CONFUSED AFTER READING ALL THIS……LOl XD

Disaster....

By the way,this was my STPM result...................

***Drum rolls....***  Cheers ....***Claps...***

LOl  ;p

 Obviously,I screwed my story...I already had all the regrets and lessons learnt before I sat for the exam...so,there very little point in regreting now.As I mentioned earlier in one of my post,I know..,no matter how many times I pray..,I'll only get what I rightfully deserve.And that's very true. I know I dissapointed many of you who  thought I would score well based on my past achievements..I'm sorry,I could'nt make it this time.Just give me another chance to make you people proud....

Thousands of thanks for your support and words of encouragement.

It's now over.

 ~pheewww~

Those were the days.....=)

I know its kind of too late to publish this particular post of mine...but, it does'nt matter afterall..it's just something worth mentioning here in my blog.For you to read,and for me to remember.It's none other than my F6 life.
I still remember, when I first entered Form 6, I was feeling really awkward or rather, feeling REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE sharing a school with boys. A school of BOYSsssSss.and ya girls also.. It's not that i'm kinda shy shy ,girly girly nor that kinda ‘mengada’ girl who's afraid of confronting boys but you see, I was from an all girls' school since I was Std. 1 and that was like 11 years in school with JUST US GIRLS! The atmosphere was somehow rather, alien to me..
How they talk, how they walk, how they eat, how they shout out of no reason, how their toilet smells, how they laugh, how they drool at girls,how they fight,how they jump out of school gate,how their canteen smells and &^%&^ much more. Of course the upper forms' are much more well behaved :) A very obvious contrast. But somehow, soon after that I could already adapt myself and that’s when I begin to realise how beautiful people are when we actually look at them much closely.No matter how’exotic’ they appear to be,how rebellious and how far they are from the track of morality…there’s always something precious found in every person and I actually learned to honour each of them,for what is hidden within him/her.
I have misfortunes to meet 1 or 2 annoying ones but life's always fair that, I manage to bag plenty of the good ones too as friends. And it's funny that after some time we've known one another, the topic of how were our first impression towards one another came about.
Alright then,
Since I won't be seeing any of my classmates so frequent anytime soon, let me just display their photos here for you to see and so that I can always recall those days in my F6  whenever i look back at it. I wanted to actually express my thoughts that I can think of at the moment of each and everyone of you here in 6AS. It's only fair that I should let you all know what you all should know :)But I don't really have the time right now and it would be definitely a great long shit of essay if I were to write about each of you...there are just too many.

Every picture tells a story...............

6RS

my seniors....

Yeshotha,the cutie pie...

kanak-kanak ribena...

BOMBA~ best team

Tamil society..

1 Malaysia..Lol XD

prom night...

John,tao,liew yong,han yao n charles.

heroes behind the wall..

Science and Maths Society...

I'll never forget this shot...my teacher was actually sleeping...;p

Great seniors...

junior prefects...

choir team...

Liew Yong

Joo Ann

Han Yao~ the poker face~fun to be with  =)

Charles

'the' Jian Fu ;p

simone and wan ying

Hui yee

The one and only Sandra

Hui Yee and Jia pei

Pui yee and Joo Ann

Liew Chew

Boon Huei~ the genius

class would be bored without these three creatures...

kalaivani,yeshotha,vinod

Yee Ken~the peacemaker ;p you can see...

Yong Seng~ the philosopher..Lol ;p...just like me.

Wen yee...the loud speaker..;p

Ragu and Banu~ chinna thambi, periya thambi

Hmm, finally I'm done with all the messages that really come from the bottom of my heart.Im sorry if I've missed anyone of you...thats probably because I don't have your photos with me...
 It takes time to upload these photos I admit, but the time is nothing compared to the great times I had with you guys and girls :)

F6=BEAUTIFUL....
though I screwed my STPM !     ROFL ;p