CAUTION: Highly boring content and may laced with slight sarcasms. One may have symptomps of allergic,lethargy, blood pressure,, continous vomiting and headache……don’t tell me I did not warn you………….apa-apa jadi,tanggung sendiri. ;p
Today has been a good day, so naturally I feel the urge to write and blog. I wont write about my day, but this is something that I've been wanting to write about for some time.About me,myself and I…
I'm such a strange mix of different stereotypes, and I've probably showed all my different sides to all different people and have probably confused everyone, which would make them think I'm weird. Some days I'm bubbly, some days I look like a rampage is 2 seconds away. Some days I'm on top of it and some days are just bad, and not a single person in that place knows me well enough to know what's legit, and what's just a mood.
This really bothers me.But it does’nt matter afterall coz I know nobody can truly understand anybody.
There was a time when I always assume people think exactly the same way that I do. I blindly made conclusions thinking that those around me behave like me. I was under the impression that people can read my mind.
Yes, obviously over the time, I realised how dumb I was.
People DO NOT think like me.
People DO NOT behave like me.
People ARE NOT me.
I don't know if that is what we call bitter reality, but it is the reality nevertheless. What I have learned now? There are differing opinions around me. Differing opinions here do not mean only with regards to my opinion, but also to myself. Yes, they might be your friends, colleagues, relatives, acquaintances, classmates, labmates, gymmates bla bla bla.. but they might not like everything about you. Maybe to a certain extend, they might feel comfortable with you. Yet, that should not be interpreted as a complete acceptance of us. It's not wrong.. just not entirely safe :-)
When I say it is not entirely safe, I didn't mean you should not trust every single person around you. I also didn't mean they are going to attack you at the very next second. But you might get hurt once you find out certain truths. And in that way, it is certainly not safe.
I'm only turning 20 in August and probably still have long way ahead. I still have lot more things to see, people to meet and part. But I know, my personal space is mine and mine alone. I don't think I am prepared to let anyone invade it. Meaning which.. if you think you are close to me and know everything about me, then probably you know nothing.
I’m not someone who is as lovely as I appear to be,I know I’m not.I hit people at face,not at their back.But I will proudly say that I’m very caring. I know self praising is no praising and IT'S NO GOOD but soleela......;p
Along the way,you may have labelled me as someone being boastful or narcissistic.It’s not my narcissism,it’s just my own term of living which you’ll never fully understand.I’m not born an adult.I I know I’m too proud at times and yes I’m proud of myself.Ha,Ha,Ha....;D in some ways…not like what you are thinking,but heaven,it’s good enough that I know myself.In the end of the day, I am the one who should be calling the shot. This is a life gifted to me by them and it is not meant to please others alone. As mean as it may sound, I decide whom I wanna be. =)
Today has been a good day, so naturally I feel the urge to write and blog. I wont write about my day, but this is something that I've been wanting to write about for some time.About me,myself and I…
I'm such a strange mix of different stereotypes, and I've probably showed all my different sides to all different people and have probably confused everyone, which would make them think I'm weird. Some days I'm bubbly, some days I look like a rampage is 2 seconds away. Some days I'm on top of it and some days are just bad, and not a single person in that place knows me well enough to know what's legit, and what's just a mood.
This really bothers me.But it does’nt matter afterall coz I know nobody can truly understand anybody.
There was a time when I always assume people think exactly the same way that I do. I blindly made conclusions thinking that those around me behave like me. I was under the impression that people can read my mind.
Yes, obviously over the time, I realised how dumb I was.
People DO NOT think like me.
People DO NOT behave like me.
People ARE NOT me.
I don't know if that is what we call bitter reality, but it is the reality nevertheless. What I have learned now? There are differing opinions around me. Differing opinions here do not mean only with regards to my opinion, but also to myself. Yes, they might be your friends, colleagues, relatives, acquaintances, classmates, labmates, gymmates bla bla bla.. but they might not like everything about you. Maybe to a certain extend, they might feel comfortable with you. Yet, that should not be interpreted as a complete acceptance of us. It's not wrong.. just not entirely safe :-)
When I say it is not entirely safe, I didn't mean you should not trust every single person around you. I also didn't mean they are going to attack you at the very next second. But you might get hurt once you find out certain truths. And in that way, it is certainly not safe.
You may over come any nature’s disaster but the real cyclone is your THOUGHTS ITSELF.Sometimes not everyone can agree with your perceptions and it makes your situation worst as people misjudge you. Not all can see what you see through your eyes, as different intellectual level, or personal experience might relate to perceptions. Just because someone thinks differently than you are, do not label them as ego because we are all different individuals. It doesn’t mean one becomes superior than another by expressing different thoughts but there are valid reasons why things are in such way or the influence behind the pattern of thoughts…………Another lesson i learnt up to this moment of life is to just keep my mouth shut as some of my thought might harm friendship, simply because we humans are different in our experiences and upbringing which mould our ideologies……………………..FORGET & FORGIVE! I love you my friends.
I'm only turning 20 in August and probably still have long way ahead. I still have lot more things to see, people to meet and part. But I know, my personal space is mine and mine alone. I don't think I am prepared to let anyone invade it. Meaning which.. if you think you are close to me and know everything about me, then probably you know nothing.
It's not that I want to be mysterious. In fact, most of my friends will think I am pretty open when it comes to sharing, but I choose what to be shared and with whom. I choose whom I wanna be. If you think I'm arrogant. Then, that is because I choose to behave like that to YOU. If you think I'm a sister, that is also because I choose to be one to YOU. If u think Im a good friend..yeah,again because I choose to be one to you.Yes, I decide whom I wanna be to you. So, next time if you find yourself saying .. 'Sandra is such a ***** !!", it will be because that is what YOU deserve to get. =)
I’m not someone who is as lovely as I appear to be,I know I’m not.I hit people at face,not at their back.But I will proudly say that I’m very caring. I know self praising is no praising and IT'S NO GOOD but soleela......;p
I cared a lot for people. Some deserved such care. Some.. not at all.
Along the way,you may have labelled me as someone being boastful or narcissistic.It’s not my narcissism,it’s just my own term of living which you’ll never fully understand.I’m not born an adult.I I know I’m too proud at times and yes I’m proud of myself.Ha,Ha,Ha....;D in some ways…not like what you are thinking,but heaven,it’s good enough that I know myself.
*I AM A RETARDED KID AND HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITY, SO DO NOT GET CONFUSED AFTER READING ALL THIS……LOl XD
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