Its tough,real tough... keep telling myself that I'm not afraid, though there's so much to be afraid of. Looks as if my passion is just not here...it lies somewhere else in the field of Biology...Chemistry seem to have no good 'chemistry' (bond) with me...
I've taken a turn in the crossroad after mindfully considering many things,...Wish I know now itself whether thats a right turn or a left one...Anyhow,I still believe I can do it...guess its just a matter of how i'm looking at it.I got to start seeing it as 'easy' in the first place,then,everything else will fall on place.
A few more days left for the battle to begin...it's going to determine my future, everything that I wanted to be.I would'nt want to run away from this fear..for I believe if do,I'll keep running from it for the rest of my life...if this insignificant fear is what I can't cope with,how on earth am I going to overcome bigger things in life?
I dare not say if im going to make it ,but it's good enough that I'm working at my best...God decides the rest. It's just the ordeal I need to experience in order to fulfil my dreams...In case I flunked....note,just in case...then,
Will I be sad??? Yes.
Will I be devastated? NEVER.
....because nowadays,nothing can kill me.I'm just not bothered.If it is meant to happen,it will happen.
Hands on heart,say ALL IS WELL!!!~(3-idiots) lolx =p
Note to self:
Im not going to lose at this.Not now,not in the future,not ever.A fighter I am,but loosing a battle is not an option I signed up for.I know,though hope is frail,it's still hard to kill me. =)
This specific post is just a ray of hope within me and is solely a self consolation.So,pls bare with this piece of crap.Period. =)
I've taken a turn in the crossroad after mindfully considering many things,...Wish I know now itself whether thats a right turn or a left one...Anyhow,I still believe I can do it...guess its just a matter of how i'm looking at it.I got to start seeing it as 'easy' in the first place,then,everything else will fall on place.
A few more days left for the battle to begin...it's going to determine my future, everything that I wanted to be.I would'nt want to run away from this fear..for I believe if do,I'll keep running from it for the rest of my life...if this insignificant fear is what I can't cope with,how on earth am I going to overcome bigger things in life?
I dare not say if im going to make it ,but it's good enough that I'm working at my best...God decides the rest. It's just the ordeal I need to experience in order to fulfil my dreams...In case I flunked....note,just in case...then,
Will I be sad??? Yes.
Will I be devastated? NEVER.
....because nowadays,nothing can kill me.I'm just not bothered.If it is meant to happen,it will happen.
Hands on heart,say ALL IS WELL!!!~(3-idiots) lolx =p
Note to self:
Im not going to lose at this.Not now,not in the future,not ever.A fighter I am,but loosing a battle is not an option I signed up for.I know,though hope is frail,it's still hard to kill me. =)
This specific post is just a ray of hope within me and is solely a self consolation.So,pls bare with this piece of crap.Period. =)
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