That's So Sandy....: The end of the book of SCHOOL.....

This is how I feel right now....

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STPM is over...yes finally.All I want to say is....

Feelings of all remorseful is of course unavoidable.It was'nt because of my ignorance...I knew afterall that STPM is not going to be as easy as it sounds.I could have worked harder..,I know it was'nt my best.All I can do is to hope that I'll be given another chance and opportunity to prove myself...and I know no matter how much I pray,I'll only get what I rightfully deserve.
My first and for most mistake was because I gave up in the very beginning itself.....yup,I actually gave up much earlier...

'MACHO LAW' is what kept prohibiting me from admitting that I had actually given up long time ago! ;p

Okay,lets just forget it.....no regrets,only lessons learnt. =)

The word G.O.A.L.S and D.R.E.A.M.S in life seems to be pretty often talked about, but scoring it is another big story isn't it? [sigh] Walahaai...

So,it is indeed an ending to our schooling life but bear in mind the REALISTIC LIFE has just begun! No more fooling around and corrections can be made anymore as the real world out there doesn't give a second chance to the ignorant. I can tell the teachers that I didn't finish their homework but I can never even tell my boss that I HAVE NOT FINISHED THE PROPOSAL! I can arrive school late in one straight row of days and could not care less with the demerits awarded but I don't think I can tolerate the black charcoal face of my boss for even a day if I were ever late for once ;p

Okay...back to where I was...,Last day of schooling in my life, after so many years of making school as my second home. Today, I could just stand before the time and looked at the flashbacks of my one a half years journey in Form 6. Beautiful is the word for it. Although one and a half years is nothing compared to my 11 years of toiling in St.Mary Primary and Secondary School, but somehow Form 6 in Smk Raja Abdullah has touched my life deeper than those days in my previous school. I would say that it's because of the unsung heroes that live behind those walls. Yes, they are the teachers,juniors and all my new friends I met at there.

I would say most of them have touched my heart tremendously, unrealisingly, I'd grown fonder of them with time. I never thought that it was harder than thought, to walk out from this stage of life, leaving behind these wonderful people that I got to know in Smk Raja Abdullah.Each and every one I met in this school has been very meaningful to me.Be it you.

Then, it came to a stage where I started to feel, arghh..I'm going to miss all the great times I had here with my friends. Well, I'm always feeling thankful to be blessed with such awesome friends in my life. It was a sudden change in my life when I entered F6 last year, from an all girls' school to a coed school. From loads of responsibilities,dicipline,studies to a carefree teenager,independant student.I never thought I'd be able to find so many genuine friends here. Thinking back on how we started our conversations and getting to know one another, was such a memorable experience.

There's so much more to write about this...I think I should start with a new title some other day.

Alrite then...,we all left the school after the Chemistry (paper1) feeling so excited.I had lunch with my friends in Marry Brown and took bus to St.Mary.The others left for a movie in Brem Mall..My bestie,Komala, joined me ....we had a great time together.It had been a few months since we last met.We had so much to talk,though time factor did'nt allow us to do so.Haiz~it's okay...I believe separation secures a manifest friendship..=)
and ya...,I also realised something today...I think now I've learned the difference between having a 'good friend' and having a 'close friend'. It's about whether or not you are having 'real' conversations.

Well, my purpose to go back to school wasn't for the sake of roaming at the corridors from one classroom to another but actually went back to collect my 1119 certificate. Trust me, no matter how tough and hectic the lessons were or maybe how unreasonable the teachers once were, it doesn't really matter after all..... as school is always a place where corrections can be made and not in the real world out there. The very first step I made into the hallway,we call it a lobby, it gave me a very strong sense of belonging. Being an ex- St.Marian is yet another gift I acquired.

Okay,you may find this post of mine totally unorganized..I'm sorry,can't help it..my fingers are all typing on its own.Obviously,I'm overwhelmed.He,he..;p

Oh dear, I'm starting to miss alot of things about school. Going to miss the times when I was late and sped all the way from home to school just to catch the time before the back gate closed. Going to miss the times when we hanged out overtime in the F6 toilet just to escape from some classes :P Going to miss the lunches after school hours, duties in the library, kadet bomba and so much more!

F6, a wise choice made that I know I will and shall never regret doing even it was a tough time struggling with the syllabus. I know someday when I look back at those were the days, it would definitely be a smile and not a frown =)