Happy Mothers' Day!!!!

To all you mothers out there – and to the dads that filled in as mothers too! As I’ve recently found out, having a furry kid is like being a mom all over again so let this wish go to all of you pet owners too. Being a mom is not difficult to explain but going through some of the emotions of being a mom might be.

All of us love our mothers in a special way,I do.I too.Now…,they don’t always need gifts…


Me: Maaa…..do you want me to buy any gifts for you? A cake won’t cost much anyway…
Mum: No need,you shall keep quiet.
Me:But Maaa,it’s Mothers’ Day.Maybe you would need some appeciation you know…
Mum:Save it.Just listen and do what I say…..and grow the way I want you to.Thats all I would want in my lifetime.
Me:But,WHY???????????????????????

                                                          Ha,ha,ha…..ROFL


Here's my Superwomen…….

Supermum and Superkids...=)

Like Mother,like Daughter...

As you know,Mothers are more than 100 schoolmasters……,and some of their words are just too powerful that you can actually keep and make use of it throughout your life….My mum often summarized her philosophy in succinct phrases.A few of her favourites are:


“God gives the best to those who leave the choice to him”
*So often in my life I’ve wanted to run away but an invisible hand held me in place.I remained,worked
through the issue I wanted to escape and I overcame.In the midst of the struggle,I discovered a wonderful truth.MOTHERS KNOWS BEST.


“You can’t have it all at the same time”
* I gave up trying to be perfect in all things and the CEO of the universe, and instead I work on being myself and being good in the few things that really matter to me.


“Happiness does not mean having everything that you desire’’
*best explained by the quote itself.=) Honestly speaking,many things I have now with me,are the things I once ONLY hoped for.In that case,I’m gifted.Truly gifted.

There are more of course,but these are few that have large impact on myself. =)
 There are a lot of ways to be a mom and they aren’t all about giving birth. Whether you fill the role or not, you know someone that does. Wish them a great day!

      HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!!!!!! =)

 

My Space.....So,let it be=)

OMG! Just one day left …this is unbelievable.Got to pack my loads tomorrow and get back to hostel.Well,it’s not really a torturing atmosphere over there,but you know........=)

It's amazing isn’t it how time gets spent so easily when we don't realize it and it seems like time has stopped when we are forced to do something / painfully stuck with something.Im happy for the moment.Yes,I am.There were moments of complete desperation and utter frustration during my working days which eventually passed. I told myself that I'd blog about those moments and have a laugh after that mad spree ended ...but,maybe I shall not.It has passed,Let it just be like that.

It’s the beginning of a new semester…and all the ‘feary subjects’ are coming up…..chem,bio,physics…etc…...potchedaa..

It’s scary again to think of the ample of assignments,reports, and sleepless nights…you know its just too torturing sometimes especially for people who loves sleeping like me…

Look at that……

 How pity…..;p lol

Alright,there were few things I wanted to write about during my holidays…..,but I find myself not having the mood to blog most of the time. I stare at my screen wondering why I am not writing although there are so many topics on my mind that I can write about effortlessly. Am I not writing because I am not enthusiastic to share my thoughts with anyone? May be, may not be. I'd like to believe that I have changed for the better perhaps and that is being manifested by the updates in my blog…just for the sake of keeping it alive,at least. I have started it,So ,its survival is my responsibility.he,he
I can’t help but to wonder what is the purpose of me blogging and if I shoud make it private.All these while, I was in the thought that nobody really read my blog and even if there is…nothing posted in here is regarding them. But GOSH! I just got to know that people do read my blog…,and these people are those who I actually thought they’ll neva get to know I have a blog in the first place.

Hayyyoooo.....puppy shame Sandra!

Then,I started questioning myself if I shoud make it private,because it may hurt for some people to get to know certain truths,that were left unsaid by me.Then again ,the voice in my head answers the questions like this:
‘I write for my own pleasure and it’s nobody else business.The purpose of me blogging at first was to brush up my English.It is still for the same reason.There are spilled frustrations and emotions here and there of coz,afterall its my blog.There are things I may have felt is best left unsaid,but that never stop me from unleashing it somewhere…and the best ‘somewhere’,is no where else than here.Besides,sometimes in life there’ll be some quiet gratifications…where people don’t really come up to you and tap on your shoulders saying ‘Good Job…or what so ever ect..So,since this is my blog…,it’s the only place where I can blow my own trumpet…he,he… sounds pathetic?ha,ha…I don’t think so.You know, we can’t always expect others to acknowledge us…if you know your own value,you can do it all by your self.Thats called ‘high self esteem’…no,its not wrong in anyway,unless you poke your nose into other’s esteem. =)

What I write in here are’nt secrets.Afterall,Secrets should’nt be written anywhere,and if is written,then its not meant to be secrets at all.I do have privacy….but those are not secrets.Its just PRIVACY.I think there is a slight difference between both of these….or are they just the same..?Hayya..,Who cares! ;p
But honest or not, I don't set out to offend anybody,be it you.

Yes,YOU.

Again,I write here for my own pleasure and so. If someone takes offense from something I say, that's not really my problem.=)
However at the end of this half-productive post I have just decided to stop questioning myself and unload my thoughts whenever I want to. It's my space, I should be the last person questioning me. =)

With that,

One of the worst feelings is when someone is lying to you and you know the truth. And you thought they'd never lie to you.

Why angry? if you are right, then there is no need to get angry and if you are wrong you have no right to get angry.

There is only one success:

'To be able to spend your life in your own way,and not to give others absurd maddening claims upon it.' =)

Ekspedisi Gunung Nuang,Hulu Langat...

I’ve been thinking what would be the first story Im gonna post once im back home after finals….and ya…here it is,my trip to Gunung Nuang. Truly,it had been very long since I last went for an adventurous journey.I love adventure and Gunung Nuang is one of the best place I’ve been so far.It was actually an educational trip….for our biology fieldwork study,and this place, my group chose out of no other choice. For your information, Gunung Nuang is one of the mountain located at Banjaran Titiwangsa. It is known as the highest peak in Selangor at 1493m. The fascinating facts about this mountain is that its peak is actually located at the border of Selangor and Pahang.


We started our journey aroud 10am…we were all equipped with nthg much than 2 loaves of bread,a small tube of mosquito repellent,and water bottles.Up and down the hill,we were preety much tired and all we were waiting to see was just a river. To make sure none of us go missing….’oh yea yea’ was the magic word….ha,ha…and so we shouted all way long throughout the journey.Then eventually we reached the river,somewhere after Kem lolo that I think leads to a small dam just a couple of meter away.It was not even half of what we supposed to hike to reach the peak.However,we are not super duper hikers….so,we never really visioned ourselves to reach the top. Spent a few minutes playing in the water and had our break b4 returning….Damn tiring,we enjoyed still.It was more than just a fieldwork study…..an awesome experience.I can say none of the other groups experienced and enjoyed any more than us. But the sad part was that we actually had our psychology test the next day…and with all the strains and aches all over our bodies,we somehow managed to study for the test.Succesfully done with it on the next day and we ended up sleeping like pigs on our comfortable beds.. And there goes again……

     "Oh yea,yeea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! " =)

The beginning of our journey...

Group members~frm left: Shem,Ash,Ammu,Naali

This the entrance.....

Break,break...exhausted

a cute shot of Shem...

this is definitely posing...and you know that. =) 

this is not...,looks like one though. Lolx ;p

Sleepless nights to finish up the report and presentation......and the best thing is that our group was the only to get a good comment from lecturer.

Result: 84% (report)

~That was truly WORTHWHILE~

Oh Yea Yea!  

 You have to accept the cold harsh truth -SOMETIMES, 'The people that you cant live without, can actually live without you '.
Look at those who had lived for you,and start living for them.
*this is a targeted post.Pls ignore if it does'nt concern you. =)

Sometimes,I wish you are my real sister,that I could just break your legs and make you sit at home.Lucky though,you are not.

Random..

I love being me. It’s just that sometimes being me isn’t good enough for everyone..=)

ROFL...

My friends are accusing me for having such big eyes....Their favourite dialogue of all....''OMG Sandra,don't stare like that...it SCARES!'' wa,ka,ka,ka...

ROFL

Bio...

BIOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....................................................GONE.I loved you so much,but you never failed to dissapoint me. ~Haiz  Thanks to Mr.Maths by the way.I think I can own you this time.  

4 flat,4 flat,4flat............
you are all I need.Come to me pls.

Do I look like I care...?,...or perhaps I Do.

I've hurt a friend of mine recently...for this special circumstance,I had to.....the reason was simple..,because I did'nt want to hurt the person any more than this...
I value FRIENDSHIP,what more of which lasted almost 4 years for me,8 years for you.... and my respect for you as a person is as always.I don't want to apologize,as it would give allowance for you to repeat the mistake all over again... God sees what I think and what I do...,and so I hope i'll get forgiveness from his side at least. =)

OMG...FORGIVE ME.

I hope people will understand where their limits stand,without me having to say it.

Let go. Don't drag. Expectations hurt. Priorities change. Words are fake. Feelings don't matter. People change.Feelings change. =)

Don't start with me...

So,you are thinking that I'm stupid enough to be the one to tolerate with you,isn't it? You might think it's fun,trust me,it's not.Perhaps,it's annoying.And just because I'm keeping quiet,doesn't mean I've got nothing to say.Well,to me...,the greatest victories you can gain over someone annoying is to beat her/him at politeness.Therefore,prepare to cover before my irony and sarcasm hits you. =)

do you see that??? =)

~Leaving my mark behind.

OMG...it's already a month plus and I almost forgot to post this video over here in my blog...so,here it is..memories of mine. =)

BEAUTIFUL ISN'T IT?HE,HE...=)

Are u expecting me 2 tolerate with tis kinda rubbish???I thought I made it clear at the very beginning itself...did'nt I?????

Just left....RIP~

I don't know whether to say it hurts a lot to lose you or not,but it's better to leave than to suffer....a best friend of mum you are...,and this reminds me so much of my bestie...who never ever had turned her back on me or told me that I was'nt good enough or let me down.All I hope is that she knows I'm always here.To listen to her laugh and cry and help in all the ways I can.....and I'll try to be atleast half the friend she is to me...
I could tell her the truth today,and not because I was keeping something from her,but because the truth is that,she is so beautiful,so loving,and such a perfect friend,and I felt shy expressing that to her.I am not always good with words.But I think, THAT, she should know.Coz she used to ask me if I do have emotions...Lol ;p
Well,our friendship is some how different from others.....,I don't now in what way it is different...,but we were never like other best friends....we don't really hang on phone,nor text each other as often as best friends do,we don't really share everything between us,seldom meet up,seldom chat,seldom express,had very few things in common,.......But it never mattered after all...,or perhaps that what they call as 'special touch' in the hearts of best friends.
On top of everything,if you press me to say why I loved her and why this friendship means much to me,I can say no more than 'she is still she,and I am still me',despite we are BEST FRIENDS~ =)

Thanks to you Aunty, for you had reminded me that I should let her know everything she deserves to know.I may know what I'm waiting for today to happen.Who knows what is waiting for me tomorrow...????.....
You'll be forever in our hearts~may you RIP~

A new environment,new friends,fresh new year,a second home,a new life.......a strange feeling again,away from home,away from family,surrounded by people with different characters.....and I'm still out of the norm.OMG,safe me... Lol ;p
 p/s: thanks to MUCH for offering me the 100% scholarship,but it's scary to think of the days I've got to go through and the challenges I've got to meet. ~haiz~

You got to stop it my friend...,,I don't like the feeling of being watched. ~WARNING WITH SOME RESPECT & PEACE ~

Having experienced quite a bit,I can now state that raising children is a part of joy,and another part of a guerilla warfare...;p Gosh! I still can't digest the fact that I'm no longer gonna see my kids...truly,Im already missing these 'little people' who stepped into my life..
and screw 'Windows live movie maker' for making my efforts go waste....

Without wearing any mask we are conscious of, we have a special face for each friend...isn't it? =)

the most comforting quote for today: 

“When any anxiety or gloom of the mind takes hold of you, make it a rule not to publish it by complaining; but exert yourselves to hide it, and by endeavoring to hide it you drive it away.”

~how true....pheew =).

I know I'm supposed to be moving on, but why do I find myself playing the same track over and over again?? 

Isn't a good feeling..

We judge ourselves by what we are capable of doing,while others judge us by what we have already done.REALITY.Worst game ever.

“People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don't need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there.”

I don’t know how much this means to everyone else out there,but I do believe in it.Infact,this is all I believe in. Well,certain truth hurts…but can’t help it…,blame the situation or perhaps my own nature. I let silence to rule me…,all 2 do with anxiety and self worth.I move on.I don’t forget.Trust me, I never did.

UPU...

Results of Universities Admission was out last Friday and it was ‘ amat mendukacitakan!’.

   like I never knew earlier....,he,he

I'm not sure if I have to feel happy or sad about this... my passion lies somewhere else. And maybe I should feel happy that now I can pursue what I like ..=)

Where do we go from here?

Today,in fact for past few days I had been listening to these songs…’My Immortal’ and ‘You are not alone’ over and over again…there are times when I think  too much that my buried emotional baggage gets overloaded. It went out from one person to another,and then to all those who have left us behind and our Earth…one by one . And perhaps I was in a soppy, sentimental world, but I caught myself thinking, where do we go from here???

I mean, it's all a leap of faith, isn't it? It's not like we have tangible proof that we step in one world into another, another plane of existence. I'd like to think that after we close this chapter of life, after we exhale the very last molecules of CO², we don't simply cease to exist. That we do move into a different existence, but yet are aware of the happenings in the world.  And that this ‘invisible detective’ is still around, looking down at us.

I'd like to think that at the end of the road, I’ll get to see my loved ones and all my old friends back again.

Deep down, I do believe in it.

I really do.

I do hope I'm right. =)

1/6/2010~Another loss~a friend of another~Prakash Appu~may his soul RIP~.

Another boring day.....

Lately I've been wondering if I am judgmental/have a short temper or if the things and people in my environment are truly that annoying. I grew up to be calm and patient, however being around dramatic people  in my working place has caused me to become a bit temperamental. Ok so,whatever…I’m feeling kinda of monotonous again and feels dreaded to work.

Well, I was looking around for jobs everywhere and being accepted and god knows why I finally ended up being here in a ridiculous place.I did’nt want to make the mistake of being too selective.It’s not quite the job I wanted,but it was all I got at that moment and  I grabbed it.And now,they are not letting me go even if I want to. Made some drastic decisions to just  escape from this place,but they ended up fulfilling all my demand just to keep me there…everything turned to be better.but not human characters.I know I should’nt be expecting for comfortablity in the real world out here,but I think it was their underestimation on me in the very beginning which started all of these demands.

It was then one fine day, it tipped my level of tolerance by one degree and there  go - a big blast of the real me! LOl XD

''I don't think I shall tolerate with this kinda rubbish! ''

I was surprised then how it worked…,they promised me an allowance of RM200..That was nothing more than what I rightfully deserve for the amount of workload and working hours...but it’s enough…looks like God wants me to be here in this annoying place for some reason. I shall think it’s a gift and learn to accept it gratefully. Anyhow,I think I’m in need of this book now…

weekends....

I'm glad tomorrow is Sunday!!! And to be really honest, no doubt how bad I feel or rather how harsh has my day been... but when I think of my warm family and a bunch of really good buddies I have with me, all these don't matter after all. I live for those who mean dearly to me and not a walking shadow of RM800…. .oh,no…correction…RM 1000. =) 

=) =) =)