I forgive you!!!

To you,

I don't know what makes you feel so uncomfortable about me sometimes,that all you want to do is to treat me like crap! See, when I do things, I do it from the bottom of my heart...there is noway I would want to waste my precious time, taking so much effort to make a birthday cake , merely to get good names. And ,what??? Good name? What kind of good name could I have earned that had brought you humiliation???? I don't quite get it for a long time...I dont wanna define that, but hey..that sounds like you are jealous of something ...and for that, SHAME ON YOU.

Coz,..you are supposed to be freaking proud of me..I grew up seeing you, and that had never once occurred to me as something to be ashamed of. I have always been proud to have followed your steps. ..and there you go...pooof! disclosing your filthy thoughts. And for once you can't appreciate the amount of effort I took to make you happy on your birthday...That's very....hmm...I dunno.

 If you would ever want to listen to me..., I..,had always a fantasy about my big sister.., and you have failed on every occasion to live up to that fantasy. Yes, It breaks my heart most of the time, but I still love you..., whether you are capable of letting me or not. Because as much as you have treated me like crap, I too have felt what it is like to have a second mother .When I hold your feet close to me, I could hear my own heart beat. 

So, Im forgiving you.

I,FORGIVE YOU. Big Sister!(looking away)