I'm a lazy blogger.....

So,I realised that I’ve been a lazy blogger.I’m failing to have anything to blog about lately.Most of my time has been spent sleeping,dreaming and taking care of odd jobs around the house….but not studying,which I’m supposed to be doing right now as a STPM student.
Anyway,I’ll keep saying it’s OK to whatever that I should’nt be doing to keep my self calm,relaxed and better prepared for the upcoming disaster…..what I’m doing besides studying are’nt too bad after all.Well,I know where my limit stands.When I’m supposed to study,I would like to do it fullheartedly for it gives a lot more satisfaction and it sticks to my mind for a longer term,than doing it by force.
So,Stop,Breath.Relax.
Feeling good….
While challenging my brain is important,remaining calm is equally so.

Back to my lame blogging.I don’t really have the interest to write as my main intention of blogging is merely to improve my English….I’m not good at words and means of expressing….and that makes me lame at blogging.No matter how hard I try,blogging is really a tough job man!!!

Okay,this time I thought of writing some kinda crap,just blogging it for my own pleasure.
These are the little things which makes me feel good and keep reminding me that LIFE is worthliving…..


* To dream of something I can never have in real life.

* To fall in love. (not as you think…)

* To laugh until it hurts my stomach.

* To share uncommon things with friends.

* To sit by a calm lake or water fall .

* To listen to my favorite song in the radio.

* To go to bed and to listen while it rains outside.

* To leave the shower and find that the towel is warm.

* To clear my last exam.

* To find money in a pant that I haven't used since last year . (a large amount would be better)

* To laugh at myself looking at mirror, making faces.

* To have witnessed someone smiling to themselves.

* To have a job done fullheartedly and with great satisfaction.

* To smile at people who hates me. (They’ll never have idea of what I'm thinking )

* To laugh without a reason.

* To share a knowledge to someone who deserves to know.

* To respect people no matter how annoying they are.

* To accidentally hear somebody say something good about me.

* To score well in exam…

* To look back at myself,at my sweat and sacrifices that I’ve made and realize that it had been all worthwhile.

* To smell a newly washed wet cloth.(Mmmmm….)
* To lie rest exhausted on newly mopped floor.

* To be a part of a family forum.

* To look at someone enjoying the food I cooked.

* To be able to say out exactly what I’ve been thinking in me.

* To observe ‘wanna-be gangsters’ .(they are nothing much than you actually expected)

* To have something deeply moved in me.( OMG!Me too have emotion ;p)

* To have people who understand immediately just by my look.

* To receive a price from an unknown person.

* To have interest in everything I have to do.

* To pour a bucket of water on head when the day is too hot.

* When I can achieve things only by a little effort.

* To realize someone envy for who I am.

* When no one turns their back even when Im being sarcastic or annoying.

* To wake up and realize it is still possible to sleep for a couple of hours.

* To hear a song that makes me remember a special person or special moments in life.

* To be part of a team.

* To watch the sunset from the hill top.

* To make new friends.

* To feel butterflies in the stomach every time that you see that person.

* To have plenty of time to talk to family members.

* To pass time with your best friends.

* To see people that you like, feeling happy.

* When there’s no electricity at night.(candle lights are awesome!)

* To spent time alone talking to a newly born baby expecting him/her to listen to everything I’m saying.

* To look at stars in the sky and imagine there’s someone you loved looking back at you.

* To feel the respect of people upon me.

* To be looking silently at people being so open to me thinking that I’ll take it easy.(when Im actually not ;p)

* To have someone looking straight into your eyes and without them saying a word,you could read their mind.

* See an old friend again and to feel that the things have not changed much.

* To take an evening walk along the beach. (night will be better)

* To have something to look forward at every morning when I wake up.

* To look into the mirror and ‘hey,I’ve got no pimples on my face!’

* To sit quietly and observe people around.

* To have someone hiding something which I’ve known much earlier than them.

* To have somebody tell you that he/she loves you. (sounds funny actually)

* To listen to stories of others.

* To be able to see myself through the eyes of others.

* When dreams turn to be reality.

* To laugh .......laugh........and laugh ...... remembering stupid things done with stupid friends.




These are the best moments of my life....Let us see happiness in every little things and learn to cherish them.
Life is’nt too tough after all….truly,I’M GIFTED!!! THANK GOD.




Friends,thank you for the few minutes of your precious time spent here in my blog.I’ll be glad if you too share some of yours…and let me know if you too share any of mine.
I’ve got a comment box which is often left empty….I don’t see the purpose of it.
So,kindly help me to fill the free space…okay??.. ;p`


"Life is not a problem to be solved, but a gift to be enjoyed"

A day to remember.......

Throughout the week, I was preparing to have some significant 'final moments' with one of my close buddy who is leaving to US for further studies...eventually,we met up last night for a dinner in Pizza Hut,opposite Selayang Mall.....we'hv never met for about a year and I was extremely excited to see her after such a long break....

We laughed so hard remembering things that happened to us during schooling days...recalling back some of interesting characters in our class last time..and gossips for sure...another friend of mine,Kalaivani and my bestie,Komala also joined to cherish our last moments with our friend,Ngooi Moon Jiun......(whom I call THE WILD BOAR)
Thinking of the blessings I appreciate the most...thinking of how we are so close by heart,even when we haven;t been together for a while...just to hear my friend's voice was enough to make me smile...

The one who I can laugh with to no extents,who can help me with the problems of my life...never had she turned her back on me or told me I was'nt good enough...or let me down..
Remembering the times we shared,being her friend was more than worthwhile.
It was truely hard to say Goodbye,for I realised we might not get to see each other again....All I hope is that this Goodbye is'nt forever...Goodbye are not the end.
I'm definitely going to miss her so much and there'll be always a place for her in my heart...

~FRIENDS FOREVER~

Random again...

Do you guys agree with this statement, "There are no ugly girls but only lazy ones." ?? For me, I kinda agree :P A girl's beauty definitely needs alot of care and maintenance :)

Random thoughts for the moment...

As long as our parents are living, we are their children.We may function quite well as an adult,but it’s not until we lose our last parent that we discover just how close the child within has been lurking……

Move on.....

We may be judged rightly or wrongly by our actions. People can clearly see what we do,but not what we think.Sometimes I can’t help but to wonder, why is time never enough for us to understand another person…Perhaps,its because of the fact that nobody truly understands anybody.
19 years have gone and I’m now worried that I might not have enough time to proof the real me…,eventhough it may seem unnecessary….(sigh)
Anyway, she knows me best…for that I can never deny.
So,…as long as my intentions are true and good,my conscience is clear.I think its best when I turn a deaf ear to all unthinking people and ignore their vile stress and critisms if I want to move on …….
Peace.

"People who shut their eyes to reality simply invite their own destruction, and anyone who insists on remaining in a state of innocence long after that innocence is dead turns himself into a monster."

Give Me Strength GOD....


To accept the truth...
To be with the Good...
To Stay focused...
To help those who are in need...
To see happiness in little things...
To smile even at unbearable pain...
To think positively what ever it may be...
To be courageous to fight deeper most fears...
To stand tall when everything around falls apart...
To be patient when a volcano is erupting inside...
To go for next best try, whenever something fails...
To keep myself calm when things go haywire.....
To keep my mouth locked when my words can hurt...
To enjoy whatever I have to do....
To be happy and make everyone around me happy...
To live life to the fullest....

Seeing my inner self..

I realised that sometimes I have to rely on the poets,the philosophers and play rights to articulate what most I can only feel,in joy or sorrow.
Its also amazing to find songs which sings out my blues….
So,I just found a poem which depicts exactly something I’ve been wondering in me at this moment…its about seeing my inner self…

It glistens when the sun hits it,
And makes light shapes on my walls.
They only stay for a little bit.
Bad luck for years if it falls.

It tells me “wash your face”,
Or “do your hair”.
Sometimes I stand there in front of it,
And can’t help but only stare.

It tells me if I’m very plain,
It points out if I’m a cutie.
I can’t help if at times I complain,
Because it does’nt really show my inner beauty.

Rephrased by,
Sandra.

Im back here

Looks like I failed to fulfill my promise of updating my blog at least once a week... *sigh* It's really easier said than done, huh? :P
Anyway,Wee hoo….Happy Holidays everybody!!!!!
This is indeed the very last school holidays for the Upper 6 species right?After STPM,the chapter of our schooling life will come to an end and BOOP,the END OF OUR BOOK OF SCHOOL!!Coming up would be several new books to be authored,but I'm pretty sure that its not going to be as interesting as the days we had in school as a carefree teenager.

Exam fever....

Okay, I can now officially say that I'm done with Mathematics T(paper 2) , .... No more weird Mathematics anymore please....

What more can I say? I screw up this paper again........... aih~ I don't even know whether to say the paper is easy or it's not. Questions seems easy but God damn, I can't find the******* answers!It's all over but I'm not really that happy. I just don't know why and what is wrong with me. Just so sick of trying and forgetting and re-doing then failing. It's like it's damn depressing that you know you could have done something because you just know how to do it but you just can't seem to express it.
After all, It's just Maths, why am I such a failure?? It's just numbers. As simple as NUMBERSSS! Yet I..... I don't know. The PA (paper 2) and Maths 2 so far,kinda drowned my exam spirit.... I tried, but why is it never enough???

It seems like the world was really collapsing. It took me an entire noon to get over it though I know I shouldn't be moping on something that is out of my control. It's not the first time I screw up maths, is it? :) This time is no different than other time but at least I tried. Enough said.

There's nothing to be anticipated for in my results now, since I pretty much accepted the worst already.
And the FEARY subjects are coming up next.Just too lucky to have gaps between exams...since I have 'nt revise any of my lessons yet....,hoping that i could make use of the time given.....peace ;)

TURN OVER A NEW LEAF
It takes me a while to ponder around on how to start the post. Haha! It's not a good sign isn't it? :P
Well,eventually I’ve started blogging after great hesitation and uncertainty whether I should really have one.Obviously,I don’t vision myself to be a top blogger at all,but I just enjoy sharing my journal of life with my friends and theirs with the world-indirectly…;) I don’t believe in having a note book called ‘diary’ where people usually pen down their thoughts and secrets and hide it somewhere in locker ,so that no one will ever get to read their diary. My apology to the one who prefer keeping a diary….never be offensive,because its just from my point of view.
I do own a diary like some of them,but it isn’t to keep my secrets..,it’s merely for others to read and getting know the real me….;p…I know It might sound silly to some of you out there,but that’s me…only me I guess…Unfortunately,I miserably failed in my intention of having a good diary,because no one seemed to notice neither interested to have a look….- NOT EVEN WHEN I PURPOSELY PUT IT JUST RIGHT ON MY TABLE FOR THEM TO EASILY NOTICE!!! Duh…such an insult !!!!!! ;p
I MUST BE INSANE. Obviously, there might be some of you who oppose what I just reviewed but I'm just writing based on my personal thoughts and experiences.

Firstly,I would like to thank my friends for encouraging me to have a blog on my own.They somehow convinced me that proficiency in language does not matter at all.Patiently,Mr.Appadi Naaye,(Vinod) guided me step by step to create an account,which was very usefull indeed. He also suggested some interesting titles for my blog…such as…’Sandy the kirimi..,’Finding Sandy…’,’Sandy the pandi….’’Life like Sandy’…and many more.Not forgetting my other friends like Yong Seng who came up with my current title…and HanYao with some other lame and funny titles.
Almost all the titles suggested sound good to me..so I finally came up with a decision of changing the title of my blog from time to time….for my satisfaction at least.I admit that Kalpanaa’s blog too does help in inculcating an interest in me to blog.
Next,a special thanks to my dear sis,who on the other hand discouraged me to have a blog ;0
Well, I still remember the moments when she said I’m too immature ,not good enough in English and those with a pea-sized brain should’nt dream of blogging….For that great insult she threw on me…I decided to start blogging as most of my friends do …
So..,to my Akka Mdm…,you’ll have to peep into my blog as soon as possible!! ;p

My English isn’t that superb therefore,I decided to always keep a Thesaurus/dictionary by my side as a way of brushing up my English while blogging.



I guess this would be my......diary/journal maybe..when it comes to producing a great long shit of essays.Especially factual ones……


Okay,I finally accomplished my first post!!! ;p

Friends,please leave some comments before you exit.
Regards~Sandra~

Nonsense at times.....

Arrrrrrhhhh :o *yawns*....
I dozed off fast as soon as I dropped myself on the bed after reaching home from school today. When I opened up my eyes, it was already 8 p.m. Aww..another wet afternoon was devoured again and I kept thinking of the moments in my past. It set a very sorrow sensation within me. Hmm~
About Muet Speaking.....I screwed up again.I wonder how many times more must I sit for the exam to get Band 5 at least.Examiners were better than last year....,however that did'nt make much difference to me....nervousness ruined me as usual.

Alright,PAST IS PAST!!!!
Back to routine...,I'm bored with the current bed sheet and honestly,I could already smell my sweat in the air of my bed room. … time for a new look...! So I pulled off everything and put on the new skin! After everything was done, I fell flat on it and started to enjoy the fresh sheet .. Hee.....

bed is indeed every man's best friend! Haha!!
Then after that, I started to think about alot of things, basically flashbacks of happy and unforgettable moments in my life. Life couldn't be better these days. It feels pretty much like a dream come true to me! Hee!!! Then as I was happily dreaming away, suddenly my house phone rang.I reluctantly got up from my warm,comfortable bed and ….oooopppsss….its my mother….its time for her to be back home..and I’ve cooked nothing yet for dinner…
Lots of Uumm..aahh…,Mmm..and finally she end up saying..” I’ll buy something to eat…what do u want? ’.
Huh!!! Thank GOD.
Then,took shower….had dinner with mum…did some house chores….and started blogging…..and after this…BACK TO BED.
Planned to wake up early and get some revisions done on Pengajian Am,since tomorrow is my exam.PA is my only hope for now,so all the very best to Sandra =)